It has been long long time I didnt write. Ya… though dalam hati ni banyakkk sgt benda I want to throw out. (Ya, I'm that type yang throw out whatever I feel to make me feel relief)
Harini, 31 December 2015 which means 2015 is going to end very soon.
Tahun 2015 saya katakan adalah tahun yang penuh dgn suka dan duka. Permulaan yg baik, pertengahan yg menyeronokkan with our trip to Gold Coast berempat (we really enjoy those moments together), then my youngest sister came back for Hari Raya, after that we celebrate the arrival of baby Naura into our family, but ending of 2015 agak menyakitkan untuk kami 1 family.
Our beloved abah pergi buat selama-lamanya menghadap Pencipta-Nya....
I would say, 2015 left us a very deep scar. Sakitnya menanggung pemergian abah secara tiba2, cuma kami yang memahami.
To abah, I'm writing this tribute to end my 2015 for you...
Sebab akak nk kenang abah sampai bila2...
Sebab akak nak Rayyan & Sofea boleh baca coretan akak untuk abah...
Supaya mereka faham, betapa you mean everything to me, abah....
I always pray to Allah SWT each time after my doa, " Ya Allah, tolong sampaikan kasih sayangku kepada abah, tolong beritahu abah yang akak sangat sayangkan abah "
Alam roh alam yg tak terjangkau dek pemikiran manusia, alam lain yang Allah SWT hijabkan daripada pandangan seorang manusia, jadi doa sahajalah yang mampu akak titipkan buat abah. Semoga abah tenang di sana.
Abah,
Akak tak pernah ceritakan pada abah siapa abah di hati akak. Tapi harini akak nk luahkan walaupun abah dah tak boleh mendengar (siapa tahu kan, abah sebenarnya nampak apa yg anak2 abah buat kt dunia? Wallahualam....)
Abah,
Kalau abah nk tau, abah lah segala2 nya...
Akak selalu cakap akak nk sambung belajar kat UK, macam abah.
Akak nk jadi engineer, macam abah.
Akak nk suka tolong orang, macam abah.
Banyak yang akak nk buat sbb nk jadi mcm abah.
Masa akak belum kahwin, sebelum akak nk keluar ke mana2 akak make sure makanan untk abah dh siap kalau mak tak sempat nk siapkan. Akak tau abah suka makan sayur apa, jadi kalau mak tugaskan akak utk masak, akak selalu masakkan sayur fav abah. Apa sahaja yg akak buat, semua akak akan ingatkan abah dulu. Sampai Mak Yan cakap kat mak.. " Ijah ni sayang betul abah dia, apa2 pun dia nk buat mesti dia tanya, abah mcmana? "
Yer, memang akak sayang abah sangat- sangat! Hanya Allah SWT sahaja yang tahu betapa besar nya kasih sayang akak kat abah.
Lepas akak kahwin, akak pindah masuk rumah akak sendiri, kalau abah nk tau akak selalu rindu abah. Akak selalu rasa sebak tiba2, sebab akak rindu rumah kita, rindu mak & rindu abah. Padahal bukan jauh mana pun rumah kita tu. Tp bila tak nampak abah depan mata, akak tetap jugak nk rindu kat abah.
Cumanya rindu akak tak terluah. Akak seganla nk bgtau akak rindu kat abah, kan...huhu
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Abah….
The man that I've known for 32 years…
Live a very healthy lifestyle except that he can't stop smoking.
Green tea, Chinese Tea, Apple Cider, No carbonated drinks and your healthy list goes on and on...
Has no other illness than the asthma issue..
Abah,
Who loves nature very much.
Sangat suka berbakti dengan tanah.
Anak kampung- Jitra, Kedah.
Really enjoy his childhood time & selalu ceritakan semula kpd kami kenangan2 zaman kanak2 abah,
Some ppl say he's brilliant and super simple guy,
Suka tolong orang whatever he could...
Went to few schools and few that I know is SAHOCA & MCKK before fly off to Southampthon Technical College.
Completed your degree in Sheffield University, United Kingdom (batch 1976 -1981).
Abah to my eyes is a role model.
A very practical & handy person.
Brilliant in your own way (we receive a lots of compliment on this from our neighbours & friends and we agree on that).
Always use your own money to help people in need..
There was a time when abah brought back an Iraqian Doctor that you met in the mosque because you want to help him. I still remember time tu adalah perang Iraq- Kuwait, ramai Iraqian yang dibawa datang ke Malaysia mohon perlindungan and the doctor is one of it.
Then, you brought back an American converted Muslim which you met in a mosque as well. Sebab abah nk tolong dia jugak.
Basically, you help anyone you met which you think in need, without prejudice.
Dan itulah abah yang akak sayang....
Abah, sebenarnya kehilangan abah secara tiba2 seolah mengulang sejarah duka yang berlaku dalam diri abah sendiri.
Your late father (my grandfather), passed away when you was still studying in Sheffield University, UK and you have no chance to come back and pay your last respect.
And unfortunately, the history repeated.......
Abah tinggalkan kami semua saat adik masih di Sheffield University, UK (same university) and adik tak sempat balik to pay her last respect.
Siapalah sangka semua ini akan berkahir begini, abah? Quite tragic to us, abah......
But who are we to question?
Sebab ajal & maut itu kan kehendak & ketentuan Dia.....
As this quote say, " To Him we belong and to Him we shall return"....
Kami redhakan abah pergi....
Semoga hilang segala keluh kesah abah,
Semoga hilang segala sakit & lelah abah,
Berbahagialah bersama sang Pencipta,
Kerana bersama Dia lah sememangnya pengakhiran kita....
- Al-Fatihah buat abah yang akak sayang dunia & akhirat -
MUSLIM AHMAD
1955- 2015
